Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Gosh it's been awhile!

In my effort to focus on positive things, I temporarily stopped posting.  You know, it's hard to rehash the bad things.  I end up feeling sorry for myself which, although cathartic and therapeutic, and  is a HUGE downer.  SO, onward and upward I say!

Things have been... okay.  There have been some huge fights, some huge disappointments, lots of meetings and emails to the attorney, and still nothing concrete has happened.  I suppose I should be happy to stay in this house while this process goes on and on, but I'm just eager to try to move out and move on.  I'd like to have some freedom and not share my home with him--- not that he's ever really home.

But the message today is focus on the positive.  I am finally feeling a small sense of freedom.  My friends and family have been so supportive and just wonderful.  I feel very loved and the kids are doing well with everything.  So there is all of that.  I've been looking forward to a new home and a new life.  The light at the end of the tunnel doesn't seem to be the oncoming train after all.  We're all going to be okay and be stronger for this!